That day I will be free of all this emotions...
Free from this love that drives me insane, that makes me
cry and laugh, that doesn't let me breed properly...
That rushes me home just to see you or to try to see you... leaving all my life behind...
This ridiculous enormous love that will never be right, or good, or forever... but that feeds me daily like cocain...making me miserable when i don't have you...making miserable as well when I have you... making me want to die... just to stop feeling... so much.
The Day I Left You didn't happen yet... but it will...
See you the other side....
Fall out back so pretty.
Catching the light at the back of the garden
Autumn light on the field on a mid-October afternoon
Dissolving..
Today is my birthday…
I went to a restaurant last night, and it was on the beach… so a lil after of midnight, I went down… took my shoes off…and I got into the water… the water was warm and the sensation was delicious… while I felt the waves licking my feet I asked:
I asked to feel good again… I asked to this weight on my heart to leave… to this dark veil that surrounds me to disappear… I need to forget you and move on… I need to feel happy again…I don’t feel it for so long… even when we are together I am always suffering somehow…Not the last days together tho… I was happy with you there beside me… with everything you did for me that days… was unbelievable… Who was that man? Now I just see darkness… while you keep going with your life… meeting new persons…having fun… probably reliefed… for being free of me…And I keep crying… i cry all the time…even when I seem to be smiling… I am crying inside…and it hurts so much that I wish many times to be dead, just to sop the pain.
Today is my birthday… and I wish I could sleep forever…
